By with love on Monday, January 11, 2010 @ 11:00 PM
So as usual, i've set myself up for a let down.
I had my week planned out, everything was good to go. But i don't understand how people do it. How do you just sit there and read and study and take notes and memorize and read some more and on and on and just keep at it!?
Give me two pages and i'll fall asleep. -___- Where does this motivation come from?
I need motivation.
How does one come about finding this magical mind set?
I've been thinking really hard lately, sleeping hasn't been easy. I really want to get somewhere in life. And i see all my friends around me, freaking out just like i am, but i can't help but sit there and realize,they're all going to make it. I look at each of them and see their strengths.
Some are math geniuses
Others natural artists
Some are great with people
Others have incredible patience
Some can brighten your day no matter what
Others follow their heart.
I can't help but wonder what people see in me? Sometimes i wonder, why are you even talking to me? I know i can get annoying. I realize this, and yet i carry on. I know i can be really quiet, to the point where awkward silence is somewhat of an understatement. But i wonder what my strengths are.
I wonder if any of my friends realize their strengths.
I feel like i should tell them. Go up to each one and say, wow, you're really amazing at so and so. But i know what their answer will be, something along the lines of No i'm not!/ Are you kidding!?/mims -__-
In and how we've been raised, we've been taught to always bring ourselves down a notch, even if we feel on top of teh world, we shouldn't, because there's something else that's wrong and we need to fix that.
Building on Petka's post.
Rememeber that phrase: Imperfectlly Perfect? I wish it were true.
So i might feel pretty some days. is that wrong? Should i feel ugly everyday? I really don't think that's fair.
So i might feel stupid some days. is that wrong? Maybe i'm not as smart as you think.
So i might feel quiet somedays. is that wrong? Do i have to verbally express my opinions to the world on a regular basis.
So i'm imperfect. You are imperfect. We are all imperfect.
But what is imperfect?
If no one can defien perfection, why is it that we so easily define imperfection.
You're fat.
You have a big nose.
Your hips are too wide.
Your boobs are too small.
Your forhead is too big.
You're too skinny.
Your nose is too small.
Your hips are too narrow.
Your boobs are too big.
Your forhead is too small.
^^
i've heard soemone say everyone of these. (not to me personnally) but in general. Doesn't that make you wonder? How can something always be wrong? No matter what you do, it's never quite right. It's an unsettling thought, i realize that. But think about it.
Start in at about 40 seconds in this video.
One of my favourite movies of all time. Have it on VHS ;)
And i guess. I'm stupid too.
The post title was also exerpted from this.
Lmfao and if you have the time, check out that priceless piece of work at 2:30.
"you're a little short."
"Yeah well, your a little fat" <3
And by the way, for anyone who hasn't seen this movie. It's called camp nowhere. It's all about a group of kids who don't want to go to their respective stereotypical summer camps arranged by their parents. Whether it be computer camp for the nerd, theater camp for the princess, fat camp for the average girl or military camp for the rebel.
Love always,
Haya
4 Comments:
hahahahaha wow looks like a old movie. I havent seen it though.
anyways haya i love how you start talking about something and then completely go and blab about something else.
honestly all those things you said all those strengths you carry each one of them honestly. maybe not the art part. ( to be honest) and i am not even that great in art because in my class i have rachel and briar who want to be art teachers and than i am like not even that great when i look around.
i think the brighten your day no matter what is me :) haha no who is it? i want to know it sounds like an amazing quality i always wanted to have. who were u thinking of when u wrote that? tell me your secret lol.
anyways haya your amazing in your own way and I dont think you realize this, and maybe i dont tell you enough but you know how much you mean to me and you impacted me in such a positive way. you already made a difference in someones life, and who cares even if you dont have any strenghts and if your going no where. as long as your enjoying every minute of it and doing what you want to do, thats all that matters.
because i will respect you and be there for you throughout the whole journey. i promise. you can always turn to me and you already know you can tell me anything.
you have to be reminded that you are special, even when you hear your name you already know
"wow this is a special girl" remember you mean life, so dont turn off your lights, just yet.
(L) (K) (K)Petka .. xoxo
aww that was sweet. <3
lmao i won't reveal my secret ;) but yes that is a strength of yours. You always make me happy. (even when i'm really mad at you)!
yes i mean life, and you mean stone. There would be no life without stone. <-- lmao biology will make you understand that this statement is in fact true. <3
I love you and thanks for this comment
(K)luv ya fo~evs bffl (K)
lmfao^^
i'm gonna stop with that now :P
Oh and yes i can't hold one train of thought.
and yes it is an old movie. made in 1994.
that little boy in it, the one with the money, yeah go look him up. His name is Jonathon Jackson.
Boy has he changed ;)
ya today was a good example. i was soo getting on your nerves. just pushing every button.
but no you were like completely dying on me. :P
its ok i like you this way never change! :)
and the juvenile thing... i feel like marley and jasmine.. lol (K)
:P:P loves yass.
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