Well today was interesting...
Apparently i have a full brain? thanx so much guidance councelor, you've made me even more confused about my future then i was when i walked into your office, always a pleasure.

I think i should just go on with the expected and get on with my life, ill minor in film and be happy, hows that sound?

Anyway, today i got a wave from another neighbour. I thought it was cute. It made me decide on a new, new years resolution; that is to be nicer, and friendlier to strangers. I know that might sound a little ify.. you know with all these creeper attacks and what not, but i don't mean getting in the car and driving off with them. I mean simple hellos and goodmorning and goodbyes and have a good weekend's will suffice.

I feel i need to start being nicer. Maybe then ill meet someone, or get to know someone i otherwise would never have spoken to. And maybe it will help, when i finally head off on my own, and find myself in a room with my new roommate and total stranger, i can surpass my prejudging reflex and just get to know them, no matter what.

I'd like to be one of those people. Someone who will accept anyone else no matter what. And to get there, i know i need to accept my own self first.

Slowly, but surly, i'm working on that, this year will be different.



^^ you knew it was coming.

But really, he is such a role model, in so many ways. He does what he really loves to do, not for the money but for the sheer joy of doing it. And he says that most outrageous, outstanding, comical and completely truthful things, it's incredible.


"I've had a select set of really beautiful, powerful, psychedelic experiences on certain drugs but I never got into just doing it at a party: 'Oh let's get f-ed up and drop acid'. That's so retarded and disrespectful to your body and the drug itself. Mushrooms, acid and ecstasy can offer you a new perspective. They can also offer you nothing." JGL

That quote especially is really inspiring, because it shows me that there is such thing as a tame wild side. I know that is a contradiction (or w.e else the figurative language is called (thanks so much french poetry)) but it's true.

Some people don't know how to limit themselves, how to do things within proportion and persepective, and i just wish they could understand what they are getting themselves into.

Sometimes i wish things were different. Other times i wonder what it would be like if they were different. I am now trying to be content with how things really are and stop what if-ing? my life.

Love always,
Haya

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