Perfect song for the perfect mood. Like always, I have been thinking alot. Sometimes not thinking is better than thinking too much, which in my case never happens.

This brings me to something I have been struggling with all my life. Connections.

I cannot give up on a person, once we are involved, if its romanticly or just as friends, I will do anything to keep us together. And that is not always good.

People tell me that I am a good person for doing so and for always being the one to "save" the relationship, but what if I dont want to be the savior anymore?

Why cant I find more people who will return my love. I would like to get treated the same way, I treat them. I am not afraid to admit that I am a vulnerable human being. Considering all the stupid bullshit I went through you would for a second think that I have some sort of thick wall around me, but let me asure you that is not the case. Every day I feel myself getting weaker and not stronger. It should be opposite but instead I keep making the same mistakes over and over again. I just can't let go, and I never will.

Let me tell you romanticly I havent had too much experience and I am sad to admit I have never you know fallen in love, but friendship wise, I have been beaten down too many times. Its probably because I see my friends as family and I give them as much love as possible, maybe not enough sometimes, but I try to do my best. I forget sometimes and it makes me shiver to think I have forget to tell someone how I really feel about them. Then again I have noticed once you give too much of yourself to someone, who you think will return the favor, they usually end up tossing you down the river.

Let me tell you, do not ever try to change someone or help them without them wanting your help, because you will suffer more than they will. Sometimes if your nice enough, you will take this suffering for the sake of their better being, but I have been there and people are not nice. People do not change and people don't appreciate what you try to do for them. They always see you as an enemy and not a friend. I gave up. I tried to win back my friend many times, but there is no hope for him. He just is too far gone now, and I can't try anymore because the more I do, the further we seperate. Honestly save your heart. Its not worth it to give it to someone who will not return the love. You will be the one getting hurt. As much as people dont realize, but the truth is, how many times fo people get lucky enough to find a person with the same mutual affection that you have towards them? A small percentage.

Its sad. Its sad to think what our society has become and is becoming, it all comes down to better choices and they way we choose to live, should affect the people around us. We need better examples and better people to set those examples for us. People are corrupted.

As I said, no matter how much I tell myself not to get too attached, I always end up doing the complete opposite. And I guess that just part of my character. Its not even clingy, I just care. I care and I try and I don't like to fight. I hate it.

Many will contradict this band, because of their tunes, melody and maybe cheesy lyrics, but what ever you say, I have liked this band since grade 7 and I will not start hating it. If lyrics can get you to the point of tears, I think the songwriter has pushed his message across. That's the best kind of compliment they can get. I will always come back to this song.

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