I do, I truly do regret not writing this directly on your birthday, but as we know my life is a hectic mess.

I do love, I do care and I do miss you.

Many people don't understand true friendship. They seem to find people and make this bond with them, that either doesn't last or doesn't succeed. Then again, it's not fair of me to judge other peoples relationships, needs and wants, but I require specifics. I'm needy, I need attention, full attention.

The way I feel about this girl is unexplainable. Its not just anything. And I know many say that, and feel that their relationship is the best, so that's not what I am saying, because ours is just different.

Its special to me, and no matter how much I put my feelings into words, or try for that matter, she will never know the impact, she has left on me. Not many have succeeded in being there, and literally listening to everything I have to say, but its safe to say: she has.

Some say I have a lot of friends, I do, not going to go against that statement, but everyone does play a different role.

Haya enlightens me, dazzles me and we complete each other. She doesn't realize that she is capable of making me happy and others around her. She doesn't get that being herself is enough. It makes my days brighter, when I realize that she is there, waiting for me. She will pick me up when I am down, she will smile and say it will be alright, she will tell me I am annoying and scream in my face, tell me I am stupid but can be better. She points out my mistakes, and that's exactly what I need, so I can improve and be that better person.

Not everyone is lucky enough to find such people, or connect with them, but I was lucky. I will never forget it, no matter what happens. I will always remember that cute girl, with the hourglass body, chocolate eyes, rich dark hair, and cheeky smile.

I am content. The one thing I was blessed enough to have in my life is wonderful friends, and Haya will always be someone very close to my heart. She knows I will be here for her, and never leave her side, just like she was there during my immature moments, depressions, long phone calls, and troubles.

At the beginning our story evolved slowly, but love is patient. And our patience has made our love the strongest it could be. Yes sometimes she doesn't understand, sometimes we fight, sometimes we scream, sometimes we nag, but  let me ask you, who is perfect? Well, that's just it, nothing is perfect.

Many people talk, and talk and talk. But no Haya and I, well lets just say we haven't run out of words. Sometimes we call each other 6 times in a row, or better yet have 8 hour conversations. And the funny thing is it's not pointless. Every single time, its meaningful and important.

Even though I have not known her the longest, or she hasn't known me the longest, we do share something. It gotten to the point where I just look at her, and I know, I know everything that she is thinking.

Let's just say, that I am happy for moving, and meeting her. I am happy for not staying friends with Nicole, but instead getting to know Haya. I am happy for that guy who broke my heart, because it would of never gotten me here.

And I am here. I am sitting here with a big smile on my face, because I know if I dial her number, she will be there listening to everything I have to say, everything I need to know and everything to make me keep smiling.

I just hope more people get the chance to see the Haya I witness, and have. Don't get me wrong, but I am not sharing. But I will let you get to know her, because it is something everyone should do.

I am not a poet, writer, or famous actress. I am not good with expressing myself verbally.
May I say this, when I look her in the eyes, she will speak nothing but the truth.
It's what more people should do, and say, but not enough do it.

I just hope distance, boys or family never separates us. I need her, I want her and I do love her. No matter  what anyone says or does, she will always be in my life. Through thick and think, water and fire, earth and air, love and hate, she has survived. Many more challenges will come our way, I know I will never find another character like her, so I am hoping nothing will break us.

True friends are hide to find. You will find many friends, acquaintances or interests, during your lifetime, but if your sure you have found something special, grasp it and never let go.

You never know the memories you could be sharing together. The laughs, arguments, differences, similarities, emotions, talks, screams, tears, moments, memories, jokes... they will all be worth it at the end.

At the end I can say, I have found a true friend.
Not enough times said, 
but I do love you. 


Love forever and always, Petka

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