what have i gotten myself into?
this has gone way farther then i would have thought it would ever go, and with exams around the corner, this type of distraction, well it isn't advised. But i do like him. i do. i really do. but i know i shouldn't. I know i should stop this. Stop it now before anything really happens. But i don't want to.

My mind is on overdrive and i can't stop my head from spinning.
I want to throw my phone out the window and never look back. (but it's brand new and i love it, so i won't)
But these texts are getting to me. He's really getting to me. To the point i don't feel like eating when i think about everything that's going on. I get nauseous and ready to puke. This is not good.

I'm way in over my head. We're from completely different worlds.

And i'm not sure i want to leave my comfort zone that he so smoothly seems to keep pulling me out of.
What do i do?
I'm scared and worried and i've been shaking like mad. There's nothing there but my head seems to think there is. And now i'm sitting here thinking this past week over and wondering, do i really need this type of drama in my life?
 Maybe i should write a book, aha

Thinking loving always may not be so good,
until next time
Haya

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