I am still a little shaken by the last couple of weeks. Its funny how your life can have a complete turning point in a matter of days. I went from being head over heels for a guy who lives about six hours away by plane, to a guy that lives ten minutes by foot.




I have to say that I am slowly finding the balance between whats important and what isnt.
I am happy to have reconsiled with some of my friends, that I felt like I might have been loosing touch to, like Chevalier. I am very glad to say that even though its the end of the year, I feel connected to her yet again, even though we have lost touch throughout the year due to other conflicts and priorities. I believe that new journeys are around the corner, and with my life going full speed ahead, there are new adventures to be shared and yet to be experienced.

I am carving out history. I am choosing my own paths, and doing more things for myself and for my happiness then ever. I do feel a little selfish, but I havent been this happy in a  long time.

Forgetting the past is not an option for me, but with the last couple of months being so rough on me, I feel like finally all those tears, missed opportunities and regrets are finally put towards something greater than that.
I take my downfalls and learn from them, even though school is important, I have made it my getaway and my place to relax, rather than the stressful place it used to be. I take deeper breaths and keep my eyes open. And this brought me to Karl.

Where do I begin with this story. It is so simple, so ordinary, that to me its these moments that I will remember forever. Finally I have found someone who cares and takes the time to care about me. No matter what anyone says to me he is pretty close to perfect, and we do fit.  I feel the love burning passion when he grabs my waist and pushes me against him, and kisses me so gently yet still manages to send shivers up my body. I never knew kissing could be so powerful and magical. I cannot even describe it to you, because the whole firework myth, has become my reality.

Its still all new and exciting so I do not want to make any conclusions, and even though we arent exactly taking it too slow, I have no regrets. I have waited all my life for a moment like this, and I am not letting anyone get in the way of my happiness. Not today. Today I will live my life to the fullest and with a smile on my face no matter how tired, depressed or sad I actually do feel.

I hope more moments like these occur in my life, and I hope others have similar ones, because without these fragments of time, life is not worth anything.

I have come to the conclusion that even though, Francisco is still running through my mind, even though I am on the verge of failing a class, I am on the verge of being sick, and have possibly gained alot of weight over the past week, I am still happy.

People have to see the good things in everything and everyone. That is something no one should forget, because when your happy everyone around you will be happy. If you like someone, go for it because it makes you happy, dont waste another moment.


Learn to love yourself before you give the chance for someone to love you back.
Learn to love fully, and live fully.
Smile, smile and smile even if you have brocolli in your teeth, at least you will make the person beside you laugh.

Love your family, your friends and most importantly yourself.

yours dearly, Petka

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